Morning

hello,

it's the fourth of july... i'm not totally sure how i feel about the whole celebration thing... i've been feeling fairly low about the u.s. foreign policy and quite frankly for the first time i'm feeling pretty unsure about the future... i read about the north korean reaction to our preemptive missle strike and their threat of a nuclear war... not a cause for a celebration.

lately i have started to realize my own sentimentality that i've been carrying around for years... and years...

fourth of july was spent in the schaeffer's backyard eating hotdogs. it still seems fuzzy and defined at the same time, i still remember the green in the grass being darker than what i was used to but i can't remember whether they had a pool or not; but for sure, if they had a pool it was above ground. after the picnic of sorts we would be going over to bel air high school and watching the fireworks go off... pretty great stuff... if you ask me... that seems so far away now... a distant planet that can only be seen by the negative space it creates or by some cryptic math problem that guarantees its exsistence.

creepy...

I miss being okay...

see you